Obviously, I\u2019ll flesh it out, but I think this could be good. And by good, I mean fun. My brother basically knocked every fanfic idea I wrote about last week, claiming, \u201cIf you want to write genuine fanfic, these won\u2019t end up that way. These will be crackfics.\u201d Firstly, I disagree, but whatever. Secondly, yes and? What if it does end up being crackfic? Listen\u2026 Just because something is eccentric does not mean it is not genuine. Comedic stories are capable of being heartfelt. Some of y\u2019all are just too polarized to get that.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
But yeah, I think this could be good. I have a lot of material to work with; Jacob has a whole section of Breaking Dawn<\/em> where he\u2019s the narrator, so I already have an idea of his voice. Edward does have a whole book<\/em> where he\u2019s the narrator, but I do not like that book. I haven\u2019t even finished reading it, it\u2019s so boring. Also I hate him. No but, I think Jacob\u2019s POV is a bit easier to write from, and it will add to the scary elements I want to give Edward. I\u2019m telling you, this could be fun!<\/p>\n\n\n\n The rest of this blog post is going to be me talking about all the stuff I\u2019ve watched this week, sprinkled with weekly anecdotes. But before I get into that, allow me to share this: I am undergoing a slight gothification. Ever since I dyed my hair red, I have been trying to look the part. I\u2019m wearing more black and darker lipstick, trying to elicit the mysterious, spooktacular feeling. I don\u2019t know if this is just a seasonal (Halloween) look, a seasonal (red hair) look, or if this is my new look. I guess we\u2019ll see.<\/p>\n\n\n\n You know actually, it\u2019s funny. Every time I put on an outfit, it never really feels like my<\/em> outfit. <\/p>\n\n\n\n Uh oh, this could get deep. Let\u2019s be cautious, now\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n I\u2019ve said this before, to my friends and my therapist and my university\u2019s Honors administration (it was part of my application), and I\u2019ll say it here now: My outfits always have some underlying story. Sometimes it\u2019s closet cosplay, but often it\u2019s something along the lines of faking it till I make it. My outfits are expressions of me, yes, but they\u2019re also what I imagine a Parisian model to wear, or a woodland elf with birds in her hair, or a college kid going to school. It always feels like my take on something\u2014like, my take on goth\u2014rather than\u2026 just\u2026 something<\/em>.<\/p>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n Huh. Wonder what that means. I think it just has to do with change. Y\u2019know, I feel like I\u2019ve been in an identity crisis for forever, but nowadays I\u2019m starting to think maybe unstable\/unsure identity needn\u2019t be the reason for a crisis. We\u2019re always changing, aren\u2019t we? Some fear about it or push against it may be okay to an extent, but too much of either can\u2019t be good, I don\u2019t think. The only thing is, if my constant state is change, can I ever feel comfortable in my own skin? That\u2019s kinda the root of conflict in all my queerness, Mexican-Americanness, and overall personality-ness. How can I live in the in-between if the whole world feels so polarized? There\u2019s that word again\u2014polarized. I am the one gray fish in a sea of black and white.<\/p>\n\n\n\n If I had a superpower, I\u2019d pick shapeshifting. I would be able to be whoever or whatever I\u2019d want at any given time, yet I\u2019d still be, undisputedly, me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n But then again, I guess I am a shapeshifter to some end. It\u2019s just my clothes that change instead of my body. I like that. If my constant state is change, then I feel comfortable by changing. It\u2019d be silly to tell a shapeshifter to remain the same.<\/p>\n\n\n\n That being said, the Joker IS me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n If I had a nickel for every time I got weirdly attached to a sequel movie about a clown, I\u2019d have two nickels, which isn\u2019t a lot, but it\u2019s weird that it happened twice.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Here\u2019s the deal: I watched Joker: Folie \u00e0 Deux<\/em> (2024) with friends on Monday. What a movie. You may know me enough to know that I have an interesting<\/em> taste in movies. I like bad movies, to put it bluntly. Bad to some, wonderful to me. There\u2019s a very fine line between things I ironically love and unironically love, and many of my favorite movies dance around it. Actually, it\u2019s more like a graph, with ironic\/unironic being the x-axis, and love\/hate being the y-axis. Many of my favorite movies hang around the center. I\u2019m not sure \u201cfavorite\u201d is the right word. Movies that are a part of me for better or worse is a better way to describe them.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Joker: Folie \u00e0 Deux<\/em>, henceforth called Joker 2<\/em>, is not what I would describe as a good movie, but it wasn\u2019t infuriating enough for me to hate it. It was a good bad movie, in my opinion. It\u2019s stupid, but not utterly annoying, and interesting enough to keep you engaged.<\/p>\n\n\n\n I\u2019ve been listening to the songs since watching. I wanted to give them\u2014cough, Lady Gaga, cough\u2014a chance outside of the movie. Unfortunately, they are not the best. Gaga said in an interview that she \u201cunlearned how to sing\u201d for Joker 2<\/em> and oh boy. You can tell. Her skill is definitely still there, but so much of her singing on the soundtrack just makes my voice hurt. Specifically, her whisper singing. There\u2019s too much goddamn whisper singing in Joker 2<\/em>. I like the crescendo a lot of the songs have, but hey, how about we switch it up a bit so all the songs don\u2019t sound the same? There are 3.5 songs I like; 2 of which I like more without the visuals, 0.5 of which I like less without the visuals.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cFor Once in My Life\u201d and \u201c(They Long to Be) Close to You\u201d are the songs I like more without the visuals. The former has exquisite brass, and I really love Joaquin Phoenix\u2019s vocals in the second half of the song. The latter is simply very beautiful.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cThe Joker\u201d is the 0.5 I like less without the visuals. I think the scene with the song was somewhat cringey, but it made sense with the story. If I was a Joker-head, I could see myself clapping and cheering for the scene. The Joker is literally him, guys. Without the visuals, you realize the song is missing something. My friend said she wanted Phoenix to belt at the end, and I want that now, too. It\u2019s the crescendo again, but for this song, I wished it didn’t end with a descendo like some other ones did. Once I realized Joker 2<\/em> is a jukebox musical, I tried finding a version of \u201cThe Joker\u201d that did give me what I want, but I have yet to find one. I want the crescendo, a big finish, and the blaring brass. Gimme gimme gimme.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cIf My Friends Could See Me Now\u201d is my favorite song from the movie. It is so<\/em> much fun; it makes you want to get up and dance! It ends big, too, which is perfect. The visuals were fun, too! Lee and Arthur dancing in the rain as they\u2019re trying to escape Arkham. Immaculate. I am so lucky because Gaga recreated this song on her album, Harlequin<\/em>, and it\u2019s just as good (unlike her \u201cThe Joker\u201d rendition\u2026), so yes I did add that to my likes.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Overall, I think this movie had potential, but they fucked it. The Joker representing himself in court could\u2019ve been so good. Harley Quinn being Joker\u2019s ultimate fangirl could\u2019ve been so good. A Joker <\/em>sequel that\u2019s a musical with Lady Gaga starring as Harley Quinn could\u2019ve been SO GOOD. AND YET. We got schlop. I think one of my main issues with this movie is that it is a Joker<\/em> sequel.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Fellas, I did not like Joker<\/em> (2019). (Friend who loves Joker,<\/em> look away.) I can\u2019t even say it\u2019s because I like the Joker when he\u2019s more evil for evil\u2019s sake because I like Heath Ledger\u2019s Joker. I think it just didn\u2019t feel believable to me. Ain\u2019t no way some dude killing some people would unintentionally spark some revolution. Not in that context, at least. You see, I believe Paul Dano\u2019s Riddler in The Batman<\/em> (2022) because he uses his resources (i.e., streaming) to cultivate an audience, and this audience were framed as the freaks they are.<\/p>\n\n\n\n The Joker is three things, in my opinion: First, I believe the Joker is a villain. Sometimes his motives are something you might agree with, but the actions are almost always not. Second, the Joker is powerful. In every iteration I know, which granted, isn\u2019t a lot, the Joker is either working with someone, or has people working for him. He\u2019s clever and dangerous, which makes people afraid of him, and gives him power. Third, the Joker is funny. Whether it be goofy funny or dark humor funny, he\u2019s funny<\/em>. Arthur Fleck Joker is none of these things.<\/p>\n\n\n\n In Joker<\/em>, they make him the face of a revolution, which whether intentional or not, leads the audience to think the movie is portraying him as a hero. And when you try to make the Joker the hero in a way that isn\u2019t like, \u201cI have to save the world from this more dangerous threat, so I can destroy it myself,\u201d you ruin it. You look stupid, even. Despite being the face of a revolution, Arthur Fleck has negative power. The whole time you feel bad for this miserable, miserable man. I guess he gains power throughout the movie as he kills more people, but then he loses it all in the sequel, so it doesn\u2019t really matter, does it? And Arthur Fleck is not funny. That\u2019s literally one of the reasons he becomes the Joker. Three strikes, you\u2019re out, buddy. His ass is NOT the Joker.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Oh! Also! Secret fourth thing that makes the Joker the Joker: Batman. I know Bruce Wayne is in Joker<\/em>, but he\u2019s not even an orphan when they meet, so what\u2019s the point? None of the writers watched The LEGO Batman Movie<\/em> (2017) and it shows. Those bitches need each other. Joker and Batman are co-dependent, mama. Sure, Batman exists without the Joker all of the time, but does the Joker exist without Batman? Arguably, not in a way that matters.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Despite these complaints, I have dressed up as a servelicious Arthur Fleck Joker many times at this point, and will continue to whenever the occasion calls for it. This time was for my brother\u2019s and cousin\u2019s joint birthday party.<\/p>\n\n\n\n I\u2019ve already talked too freakin\u2019 much about the Joker for my liking, so I\u2019ll try to make this short. Essentially, I bought green hair spray without reading the fine print, later read it and realized I can\u2019t use it on dyed hair, so then I decided to go to the costume store right outside of my campus after my classes. Only I forgot my wallet and didn\u2019t have Apple Pay, nor did I know if the costume store took Apple Pay\u2026 or even had green wigs. But as luck would have it, I was able to get Apple Pay without having my card on hand, which the store did indeed take, and I found a cheap green wig at the store. Yippee!<\/p>\n\n\n\n Dressing up as the Joker is so funny, dude. I recommend that everyone do it at least once. It gives you certain freedom to be goofy and cringey at the same time. And it\u2019s such an easy costume, too\u2014no matter the iteration, honestly. Oo\u2026 Actually, Jared Leto\u2019s one is a bit more difficult because of the tattoos. But ain\u2019t nobody want to be Jared Leto\u2019s Joker.<\/p>\n\n\n\n I won the impromptu costume contest held, so it was worth spending copious amounts of money. W.<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n I\u2019m finishing up House<\/em> season 6. It\u2019s been an interesting one, seeing as it began with House at a psychiatric facility with Lin Manuel Miranda as his roommate there. The rest of the season wasn\u2019t that wild, but the team members we\u2019re ending with is a bit of a welcomed surprise.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Slight spoilers. If you care, skip to the next paragraph. I have to say it: I do not like Carmen. I did back in the first few seasons, but she is beyond played out. We get it, you\u2019re a good person who cares about people, blah blah blah. If you\u2019re not willing to make dubiously ethical and possibly immoral decisions, get your ass out of my operating room! Also, her and Chase\u2019s relationship felt so bland and needless to me. I never really understood why they got together, let alone married. It barely even felt like those two liked each other! Good riddance for their divorce! Now, Carmen\u2019s gone and Chase is back on the team. You love to see it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n I started watching the new season of Love is Blind<\/em> with my mom. It\u2019s okay. Whatever. I bring this up because guys, if I don\u2019t get married by my 30s (exact age to be determined), I will<\/em> be going on every love competition\/reality show under the sun. I don\u2019t want to experience what they\u2019re like, but at the same time, like, I need to. I need to know. Put me in those damn pods already. No, really what I want to experience from Love is Blind<\/em> is the reveal. Can you imagine what that feels like? I must know. Apparently, I am an adrenaline junky but only for non-near-death experiences. Makes sense given I feel anxiety when literally nothing is happening. And that\u2019s<\/em> why I go to therapy!<\/p>\n\n\n\n There is an F1 race the day I am posting this. The Austin Grand Prix!!! Ahhh!!! I\u2019m so excited!!!! There hasn\u2019t been a race in a hot minute and there hasn\u2019t been a race I could watch in an even hotter minute. The Austin GP is a lot of people\u2019s favorites, and it\u2019s in the western hemisphere (duh), so it is simply oh so perfect for little old me. I get to a good race at a decent time? YAY!!!!!!<\/p>\n\n\n\n A lot of fans are upset this GP because it\u2019s the first one without Daniel Ricciardo, and to add salt to the wound, this was his favorite GP. So many people are saying, \u201cI fear Formula 1 will never be the same.\u201d \u2026We do not care. Personally, I think F1 will manage just fine without him. I know I will. It\u2019s probably because I\u2019m a new fan, but I do not get the Danny Ric hype. He\u2019s likable, but lovable? To this extent? I don\u2019t know, guys\u2026 I\u2019m lucky because all of my favorite drivers are shoe-ins for the time being\u2014they\u2019re secured seats for the foreseeable future. Once Lewis Hamilton retires, then<\/em> F1 will never be the same. I actually don\u2019t even want to think about that possibility. I\u2019ll cry.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Oh my god. I’m watching the qualifying at I edit this. Hamilton just got P19. Oh I could cry.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Hold up, will my Twilight<\/em> fanfic end up being A\/B\/O?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" I\u2019M A FUCKING IDIOT. TWILIGHT. THAT\u2019S WHAT I SHOULD WRITE FANFIC ABOUT. DUHHH. I already have the perfect concept. Actually, I have a couple, each involving making Edward cooler. 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